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Yesterday I wanted you
Wanted just a bit too much
Today I’m afraid of myself
And the ice between us
I just want to see you
And touch...

It is difficult to say a single word to you
And I have nothing to say
For me using the words
To express thoughts
And feelings
Is just a foolish play

Today I’m so much afraid
That it was my only chance
To be close to you
I’m afraid that I will get attached to you
And you will just don’t care…
Or call it a banal romance

I loved to feel you
Your body thrill, smell of your skin
I liked just
To be near you
And feel like between us
There was no this wall of Berlin
We have now

Our relation is just broken illusion
Memories without continuation
Unfulfilled desires
And fantasies
Our train didn’t go
To the next station

You were my biggest passion
You are my biggest mistake
Discovery never done
Unfinished emotion
Disappointment
Yes, everything, we had, was a fake

I don’t want to loose you
Even if you never were mine
I just want to stay close
To know you better
And let you to know me
The most of all I’m afraid of pain